Something to hold on to...

"Today I am one day nearer home than ever before. One day nearer the dawning when the fog will lift, mysteries clear, and all question marks straighten up into exclamation points!
 I shall see the King!"     Vance Havner

Monday, October 12, 2009

We are born, we live, we die. Right?

That is how it is supposed to be, right?  Anything not in that order is just wrong. 

 I am having a hard time knowing why a precious baby girl, Mary Genevieve,  had to have this "natural" order  turned around.  Our great niece died while still in the womb.  She did not have the opportunity to be truly born until she opened her eyes in Jesus' arms, instead of her mother's.  Her living will be eternal, but not on this earth. 

Our nephew and niece had to say their goodbyes before any hellos and their grief is tremendous.  All day I have been reminded of the scripture in Isaiah that says "My ways are not your ways".  But being reminded of that is giving little comfort here.  This is too big for me to ever wrap my head around.  My husband and I suffered the miscarriage of our first child after just 8 weeks.  Our attachment and anticipation were already great, and that loss hit us hard.  To lose a child after carrying it for a full 9 months,  when you had  all of your thoughts focused on meeting your son or daughter for the first time is beyond grief.  Is there a word in the dictionary to describe this pain?  

I love God with all my heart and yes I trust Him,  but do I understand this?  Never.   About 30 years ago I saw someone in my own family go through this same horrible grief.  I did not understand it then, and yes, I questioned God on that one.  I realize now that there are no answers.  Just questions.  

Please, for those of you who pray, I am asking for prayers so strong that they are physically felt. This family needs to feel love in a mighty way.   If you knew this couple you would know how devastating this loss will be. They adore their children. They do things right. They realize that children are such a gift and they cherish theirs.   

Quite honestly, our entire family needs to see healing. We are hurting. 


Penny said...

what to say?? hubby and I thank God everyday for our healthy kids and grandkids...we know that these are blessings that are not given to everyone and our hearts are saddened by this...I will pray for your niece and nephew and for their tiny angel...I cannot imagine what they are going through and I cannot even hope to ever understand when this happens. I read blogs of all these kids who have cancer and I dont understand...but at the end of the day we have to have FAITH!! much easier said than done...hugs to you and your family

Kork said...

Praying continually since yesterday when reading FarmWife's post...and our whole Moms' group is praying, and all their small groups...

Mrs. Buys More and Mr. Saves A. Lot said...

Anita, my deepest sorrows.

You are all in my prayers.

I have been there and I know the pain the parents are feeling.

I buried two daughters, both stillborn, and a son that died at 3 months old.

Honey, I'm here for you and yours. I did grief counseling for about 2 years with a bereaved parents group.

Do you still have my email in case you need to "talk"?

Anytime! Pam