Sunday, March 22, 2009
Dancing in The Rain
I just love it when God gets my attention.
A couple of posts ago I told you all that I miss that intimacy that I felt with God during my health crisis. I was pretty much beating myself up over it.
Well, just this past Monday night I was with my girlfriends and one wisely told me not to feel bad because she felt that was just a special time when God just gave me more, basically because I needed it. She said that even though we are strong Christians, those intimate moments are reserved for times like that.
Look at those faces. Do they care that it is raining?
I chewed on that for a few days, ( I am like that, I must have a processing delay because I have to think about things for a while)
Anyway, I likened that statement to thinking of a parent. Thinking of a parent who although has lots of children and loves them all equally, the sick one gets to sit on their lap. Thus, the sick one obviously feels a special connection at that moment in time to that parent.
Now if that revelation was not enough to make me "get it", God did it again.
This morning in church, it was almost as if God whispered, "Anita, it's not raining."
You may think I am crazy, and what in the world does that mean? So, I will try to explain my train of thought this way.
Remember when you were little, and playing or dancing in the rain was actually a fun thing to do? My boys would beg to go out in the rain. I was always the worried mom, thinking that a stray bolt of lightening would jump out of the sprinkles and hit my boys. I was mostly too cautious to let them enjoy the hidden blessing in a rain storm. I did give in at one point, and encouraged them to enjoy the rain. I even have the picture to prove it:
No, they knew how to "dance" in the rain. They knew that special feeling , that although there might very well be a storm approaching, they had no control over it, and might as well do the best they could in that moment.
I am thinking that maybe, for a brief moment in time, I remembered that as well. That although there were "storms" all around me. I sought comfort up on God's lap, and at times He encouraged me to go out and dance.
But to make God's point clear in my life now, I have to realize that it is no longer raining. I have been very blessed with my recoveries and right now it is not raining in my life. While I still may enjoy the "dance", (I still enjoy my relationship with God just as much now as ever) it is not the same as when you dance in the rain.
That is a special combination of events. Dancing outside on a sunny day is wonderful, but not nearly the same as facing a storm and enjoying the dance in-spite of the circumstances.
The following picture is a sign that my sister made for me at Christmas. I loved it then, but just now the depth of those words are sinking in. ( I told you I have a delay. God just works on me that way.)
So, I guess I get it. I can rejoice that I have a great relationship with God right now, when things are clear. Yet, I can also have the knowledge that if that storm ever rolls back in, that I can crawl to Him, and ask to sit on His lap because I need it. He will be there to pick me up or hold my hand.
He will supply whatever I need, and we will dance.